bad day........

went to asia cafe with big brother......my big brother is a very good person, he really treat good as his real sister......he worry about me that i stay alone in condo will think a lots of negative things, so he bring me out walk walk.....i tought many friends will go out together, but when we reach there only got 3 of us include my ex boyfriend, therefore we play darts together......when i m playing darts, i am thinking of my dear, we always play together, but this time i play with other people.....haiz, miss my dear a lot.....because we used to go to there too......after that both of them play pool together, i sit beside alone and look at they play......at that time my brother seddenly ask me:"your dear dear always bring you to play pool here???"then i said"no la, i am not playing 1, but my dear very good in playing this......"haiz, when i am thinking of my dear, i feel like wanna cry......therefore i walk down alone to buy some sweets......

my big brother was very nervous when he found that i am not there.......so he ran down also......he ask me what happen and say he will listen to me......then i tell him i wanna look for michele at Bukit Jalil, he say ok but he dont know how to go......then i say nevermind lo, its too late already, dont wanna disturb her la......my big brother also tell me that his car not in good condotion.....

after that, my ex suggestion that go starbucks, we go together.......when we reach starbuchs i order a cup of ice-blended chocolate, because ice-blended chocolate is me n my deer favourate......after that, we sit together n start to chat.......

about 12 something, we decided to go back already but the car break off suddenly.......so that i went back late.......when my dear called me n know that i still haven go back, he feel unhappy already......when i know that i started to cry, my brother console me even he dont know what is happening......

about 1 something, my brother's fren came and fetch us back......when i reach condo, i called my dear.......i apologize to him......and promise him i would not go out with my ex boyfriend anymore, but he act like he dont care of what i am saying.......i know he will be leaving soon, i had already feel so sad, he still treat me like this..........anyway i still wanna say sorry to my dear.........

goodbye my dear......

my dear just sent me a message............my dear will leave me soon, because he will be studying at curtin university......means that the distance between us will become very far already......but i still support my dear's decision, because i know that this is for his own good and good for his future......

originally, i am still thinking whether i should study at curtin in perth or not, but after my ielts speaking test, i know that i cant......this is because of my english level cannot let me survive at oversea......not only that, i also do not want to give up my dream easily and leave my parent so fast.......dear i hope you can understand me......

dear, when u go to perth we cannot always stick together lo, hope you can use to it asap......i also will try......dear dear a, you have to take care of yourself o, because i cannot stay by your side and take care of you already.......i know there sure got many pretty girl de, dear dear dont forget me o......bye my dear......love you......

my lover.....

still remember that i meet you in a raining day.......every time when its raining, i will be start thinking of you......we did a lot of stupid things like playing at the tennis court when raining, dance at the park and bought the mcd ice-cream and eat at kfc......haha......so funny......dear, still remember that we chat at the tennis court???you told me a lots of your past......i also told you a lots of my past......at that time i started to know that you are a very nice people, you know how to take care of a girl and understand what a girl need.....

dear, you still remember that we dance at the park after the movie???you started to attract me at that time, you let me feel that you are a romantic guy......you let me feel like i am Cinderella dancing with a prince......i am very enjoy dancing with you eventhough i am not really know how to dance......

after that, we are together already......dear, thank you for celebrate my birthday with me......i really very happy......you are a boy who can bring me a lots of happiness and sweet memories.......after i had be with you, we always stick together, never separate......but now we have to separate for so long,maybe 1 month or maybe longer that that......i really don't know how to get with it......

dear, i know we still care of each other......if not you wont came back last week......thanks for coming back my dear......i really appreciate what you have done......dear, last Saturday, when i look at you playing basketball at the basketball court, you were so charm......i like to see you playing basketball.....but when i think that this is the last time to see you playing basketball, i feel so sad, my tears started falling down......

dear, i am sure that you will be going to Perth, coz i feel that you are more suitable with the oversea's life more that here......dear, we got our own dream and also will fulfill our dream with different way like study at different place......i hope that this day don't come so fast, coz i wanna treasure the time with you......dear i love you......